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Leel
08-08-2004, 08:16 PM
This is kind of hard to do considering it's only been a couple hours since I found out the horrific news.So, if there's typos it's because of the tears.

~~~~~~~~In loving memory of my brother.~~~~~~~~

My Brother's Dying Wish
My brother was a very complex man. He was wise beyond his years and no one truly saw that. Though my brother was only 19 at the time of his death, he really had an old soul. He has seen many things in his life, most things a man shouldn't see. He was only 10, when he had to become a man and support his dying family. His only dream was to be heard by at least one person that he could impact greatly. "Many people try to be heard, but none have tried harder than I. For I have went to the Eastern part of Earth, as well the Western, Southern, and Northern just to spread my work. Whether or not it was taken in, is not my worry. For I have read aloud many scriptures in many languages, just to be heard by the people." (quoting him from a letter he sent to me last year).

My brother had watched our mother bleed almost to death, before he himself pasted out. Not too long ago, about 2 years ago, he learned that he was adopted. When he found that out, he didn't neglect his adoptive family and cast us away. He pulled us closer, reminding us that we are all we got. Slowly Family mebers died off. My twin sister died, then our older brother, and just about a month ago our auntie died. Not just any auntie though, she was the one that helped put a roof over our heads after our mother past. My brother was at his nieces side as she bled to death from a drunk driver hitting her. He was again at his other nieces side when she died in a car accident along with her mother. He had taken part in hurting other people, but fought with his inner demons everyday. "I have but one family to impress, comfort, and share happiness with. So, why would I take another's life? It doesn't make sense to make a whole family sad, just to get vengeance." (quoting him from a letter he wrote to his exwife, Jade).

My brother was part of a dying breed. He was a good man, though his actions didn't always portray him that way. He seemed to be happy and full of life, but actions sometimes speak louder than words. Today, he committed suicide. He left behind a letter with a few requests of things he wanted done. The one thing that stuck out the most, was what he wished to happen to his son, Kaleel. He wished that a rather young woman adopt Kaleel, because she knew and understood that his son was his whole world. This young woman just happened to be a woman that he held near and dear to his heart. A woman his son had never met before. This is the one thing in the whole letter that he stressed the most. That a stranger have his son, was my brother's dying wish. "Don't allow my son to be totured by the unknowing. She knows more about me then most people do, and he deserves to know as much as he can about his 'papa'. Besides she understands that he isn't just my son, he's my world, my son, the air in my lungs. He's my life, and he deserves to have such a loving and caring woman take care over him. Just make sure that she knows of my dying wish. Tell her I bid thee well and Goodbye." (quoting him from his Death Letter)
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You all formally know my brother as Beamxcell, Siah, Issiah, Beam, Cell, etc. I figured since he had mentioned a few of you, that you all should know as soon as possible. Thank you all for reading.
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R.I.P Issiah R. Keene
~D

-Evey-
08-08-2004, 08:36 PM
**((**Inhale**))**
**((**Exhale**))**

You Cant be serious...OMG Is this some kind of sick joke?

omg omg omg omg

who ever this is PLEASE PM ME!!!

Status.Quo
08-08-2004, 08:43 PM
Damn, I Really Didnt Kno Da Kid, but ...
Im Sorry To Hear Da Bad News - I Hope You Get Thru Ya struggle & Remember Him As He Wanted It To Be
You & Your Family Is In Our Prayers !!

Some People Joke About Death, so Can We Take A Minute To Contemplate On Da Situation
Dis Kid Was Here On RW Jus A Few Hours Ago
We All Do & Say Shit, but Never Realize Some of Da Shit We Say Hurt Others
So, Right Now - This Isnt A Game

Lets Take A Moment of Silence & Remember Beam As He Once Was !!

Ca$hville
08-08-2004, 08:56 PM
woah..... thats deep...... im sorry for your loss you and your family are in all of our prayers and thoughts

Wreckin Eyez
08-08-2004, 09:01 PM
Wow... I knew him somewhat... Damn man, there's nothing that can express how sorry I am.

Dras
08-08-2004, 09:06 PM
Damn, unbeliveable..........i can't believe it....... this is so unreal....

Tiliya
08-08-2004, 09:14 PM
if this is a joke

nobody is laughing rght now..

shit shit shit

if not;



RIP

GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

ROSE.
08-08-2004, 09:15 PM
so so so sorry leel. Really wish I got the chance to know him.

R~I~P

Leel
08-08-2004, 09:20 PM
It's overwhelming how many people actually think someone would joke about death. I know we all wish it was the case (at least I do) but I'm afraid it's not a joke. I appreciate everyone's support.
~D

Tiliya
08-08-2004, 09:25 PM
The Good Die Young

Mischieveus
08-08-2004, 10:50 PM
Damn. I remember seeing him post before. Matter of fact, I think I recently saw his name on the birthday list if I'm not mistaken. It sounds as if he had a very hard life. I do feel as though that suicide is a cowards way out, but atleast he can finally be at peace. I'm terribly sorry for your loss, Leel. Take care and remember to stay strong.

Apollyon
08-09-2004, 03:14 AM
"If you don't take a fancy to the cards you're dealt, fold. If you don't like the game you're playing, then quit while you're ahead."

How did he do it?

D-Illar-1
08-09-2004, 09:45 AM
Damn man..................Damn......

xdecent
08-09-2004, 10:33 AM
mayne i never knew him
but i have seen his posts many time

anyways may his soul rest in peace
life is tough..i know
pz

COVERT
08-09-2004, 12:57 PM
Im sorry for your loss, i know how this feels i lost my best friend the same way 2 years ago. your bro was an intelligent man, whos opinions were respected, he has now progreesed to the next stage of life and will always look over you, and your family........always keep your head up,

....peace

Leel
08-09-2004, 02:11 PM
Thank you everyone. Status thank you, I couldn't of said that better myself. I appreciate all the condolences.

The Obscured
08-09-2004, 05:09 PM
Wow... I knew him somewhat... Damn man, there's nothing that can express how sorry I am...................................

Leel
08-09-2004, 06:14 PM
There's no reason to argue with one another. It was an ignorant thing to ask me. We all know that, but no reason to argue about it. The fact is; it ain't really your business to know that, let alone ask it. Thanks to those that did point out the ignorance, but no need to do any more.

Status.Quo
08-09-2004, 08:28 PM
There's no reason to argue with one another. It was an ignorant thing to ask me. We all know that, but no reason to argue about it. The fact is; it ain't really your business to know that, let alone ask it. Thanks to those that did point out the ignorance, but no need to do any more.
Ignorancy Comes In Many Forms ....
Jus' Ignore'em !!

†Ðîvîñîtÿ†
08-11-2004, 10:27 AM
omg..... this seems... weird... i was unexpecting it... as ive only just read his good bye thread in the general dissgussion properly... i new this guy... i used to talk to him alot ages ago.. but then we just stopped talking

but Leel.. my condolences... really :(

BusterHymen
08-12-2004, 03:58 AM
he posted and in 5 hours he killed himself and you was already at your aunt's house writing up about 5 paragraphs about it?

my moms killed herself and so i know how things work this doesn't seem all that possible..

Vokals
08-12-2004, 04:39 AM
i see it if u kill urself ur a pussy, thats a bitch way out, it shouldnt be that bad that u have to take ur own life, no matter how bad u have it somebody else has it worse...

LloydBankz
08-12-2004, 05:56 AM
I know this is probely old, put sry about ur lost.

Tiliya
08-12-2004, 10:06 AM
i see it if u kill urself ur a pussy, thats a bitch way out, it shouldnt be that bad that u have to take ur own life, no matter how bad u have it somebody else has it worse...


yea maybe true, but u need to know that sometimes u see no way out...

Vokals
08-12-2004, 11:56 PM
still a sorry ass thing for a person to do, ur a weak individual if u kill urself...

F02936GF12
08-14-2004, 12:52 AM
he posted and in 5 hours he killed himself and you was already at your aunt's house writing up about 5 paragraphs about it?

my moms killed herself and so i know how things work this doesn't seem all that possible..

talk about takin the words out my mouth

i didnt wanna say nuttin but umm...yea, so i wont im smart enuff

but i do agree wit busta.

sorry thats just how Quiz feels....damn i aint been here a while who else died besides tsk?