This is a part of my life....I am now at the point whene i dunno the right way and i dunno i just wrote suttin about it...tell me whatcha think

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Do u know how it feels like when u are on the top and the best, when u are so happy like you are touching the sky, you are so high that you forget everything around you, all the mistakes that you ever made in your life and all the problems wich are surrounding you and do u know how it feels like....................

when you are down, real deep and real low... like you are the dirt on someones shoes, like everyone is steppin' on ya toes... you been feelin like you wanna die, like you wanna take a knife and cut ur vains... or take pills, you are at the point where u don't know how to go on so that you wanna take your own life wich god gave you

God knows what shit i tried, god knows everything that i made, god knows my bad and the good times, he knows everything about me and sometimes he helped me sometimes he didn't, everyone of us is a human, but some are rich and some are broke, we are different but somehow we all are same...

Do u know when u feel nothing, do u know how it feels like when u don't know what u should feel...everyboy knows I think, but everyone of us got his own problems, some are worse than the others, some aren't.

I got many problems and now i got a problem where the situation is like i dunno how i should feel or better said, i dunno what i should feel, wich way i shoul choose, wich way is the right one, nobody knows but I'm askin everybody, like someone could know what the best is for me, some people are just actin like they do.

I've been altrough and I've seen it all, but sometimes there are problems wich one you can't solve, they left you in the rain and commin out the blue, I had a worse problems than i got now and i could handle them all and now i can't find the right way.

I know that problems are coming and they are leaving like they came. But they will ALWAYS be there.

God is my friend somehow, i hope he will show me the right way, to help me outta my dillema, to help me outta my problems, to help me outta my pain (like he did when i was in the hospital) to help me that i see my future, thank ya

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-----THE END-----


~Tiliya

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I don't like where this story came from....


when you are down, real deep and real low... like you are the dirt on someones shoes, like everyone is steppin' on ya toes... you been feelin like you wanna die, like you wanna take a knife and cut ur vains... or take pills, you are at the point where u don't know how to go on so that you wanna take your own life wich god gave you
don't be picking a third way of your cross roads...

naw i wont, im over such stuff ya know, but sometimes i think back but now i know, it isnt that worth......


thank u for ur reply, i even dunno what i wrote, i just wrote to get my feelings free.....