The Dreamer
03-14-2006, 01:08 PM
Just a baby crying whining empty stomache now feel like my insideds are intertwining daddys gone and mommys gone but only up staires now shes got another man, he's fat ugly tatted and unconsiderate hitting moms while shes off in wonder land from either crystal or running along the tracks on her arm no alarm to me but me being only 6 months old not knowing whats what is skulleded leaving scars on my stomache an elbow and later my heart which when un-follded looks like swiss cheese now at tender age of 13 daddys been on lock down for 12 long years he's disapeared off with his peers and im left there with tears waiting for daddys promises to take them away but little did I know that day daddy would come to my resque right on que when auntys on her death bed but not the resque you think just like daddy he comes in on que with a brown baged fourty of king cobra outta the bushes stageran in my eyes all i see is a drunkin bum stumblen outta the boondocks where grandmas trailer was whoms body I stood over trying to make myself cry wondering why, oh why do people die but thats a differant story for a differant time, any ways I see a bum stager and I laugh until I her a slurerd cry that sounds like my name I turn and find that this drunken guy is my father so many questions run threw my mind but instead I say yeah sure with sarcasim and I jump in the truck tell my grandpa see that guy and I tell him that he said that he was my father, grandpa laughs softly and replies he is, shocked I turn to see my father and ask him why oh why didnt he come to see me once he got out he goes, I dunno, so I humor him with a small conversation cause I knew at 13 he had demons to fight from within and he thought I could release him but he realises im not the key.....and now I must stop cause im sleepy and tired from so many tears but when I dream I dream of pitch black silence and in short death and thats my motivation for all this......shit